Three years ago at this time, I was overwhelmed, holding a newborn baby, reminding my children to pay attention for the millionth time, traveling back and forth to the hospital to visit my husband who was recovering from yet another surgery, and certain that I made a terrible mistake by choosing to home school. I thought back to the summer when we made this decision and was sure it must have been a moment of pregnancy craziness. Everyone knows you shouldn't make life-altering decisions during the third trimester! But, here I was in a big, heaping pile of the chaos as I tried to make sense of our homeschooling curriculum, grade books, planning, and teaching, while nursing a newborn, keeping my house semi-clean, going to soccer practices, doctor visits, and spending time in surgery waiting rooms. It was one of those places in my life when I was doing lots of things, but none of them were being done well. I've been in those places more than once and they're not a fun place to be!
The Robinson's house is much more relaxed these days. When I remember those first few weeks of homeschooling and the circumstances surrounding them, I am reminded of how blessed I am today. My husband is as healthy as he can be (seasonal changes are never easy for Crohn's Disease) and he's not in the hospital. My kids are all three becoming responsible, respectful, intelligent, kind, compassionate, wonderful warriors for Christ. I am keeping busy with just the right amount of Etsy orders. And most importantly, God is in the center of all of this. We still have our days when nothing I do can make my children remember how to spell the word "substitute" or no one can remember what the lowest common denominator means, someone older than age five asks me if December comes after October and I wonder if a mother's brain can actually explode. I have moments when I feel like I am not teaching the right material or that I don't have enough time to teach my kids everything I want them to learn. Experience and time have shown me that I need only to trust God and everything will work out just the way he planned.